@ 12:42 AM
relationships,fragile as they are. bonded as they could be. forged by the many branches that makes up the tree of love.
a typical case study:
a certain random: i would love you till the day i die
a certain random's gf: ohh.. me too.
*getting all affectionate and touchy...
** yet a few days later, they broke up..
so, what is everlasting love? true love? everyone ponders; this is of course a controversial issue where there are many sided views.
Of course, you might say how true love happens when somebody see through your imperfections and accept them for who you are. Well, truth be told, the more imperfections you have, the more likely you'll end up still being a lao ti koh in your mid 40s with nothing but a old ugly dog to accompany you and lick your decaying toenails.
to any ah pek ah mao on the street, definitely, savoring the feeling of being loved is easy, but could love only be a one sided affair? where only one party is sustaining it? well, i would say love is a journey (and pls, this is not any yahoo/google, search engine answer, though it would be a good idea to get some inspiration there..) where it is smooth sailing at one and hiccups the other. but wouldn't all these make one stronger? when upon arriving at the final destination, which might be marriage/death, one could emerge to be a stronger and better being?
love i would say is also a pursuit. an endless one, some where one cannot stop but be greedy for more. and it eventually becomes something that we can no longer achieve/reach which is most probably the reason why couples break up, as when u are more into the relationship, be it the duration,bond.. the expectation to the other party gradually increases and when failure to keep up, leads to unhappiness and finally separation.
LOVE in my era is generally expressed through BGR, 'friends' become exceptionally sweeter/romantic and more physical. why 'friends'? well, in short, how many people actually treasure their spouse? either they two time, or for sex, others etc etc. the value and meaning is thus lost. bringing a new definition and term to BGR, Boy Girl inteRcourse OR Boy GIRLS race, this has what BGR turned into, no more romance, love, sincerity..
Nothing's perfect. Not even love. Yes, we can aim for perfection, but even so, it's almost always near perfect. We all love our partners to say and do sweet nothings for us. We expect them to do this and do that and when they don't, we get dissapointed. Turns out that we have become an addict of romance and not of love any more. So I'm not asking for an ideal relationship, for the other half that completes me. I'm tired of waiting or looking for him. But instead, if someone speical comes along..someone who gives me warmth, who gives me tenderness once in a while then I'm contended
and LOVE has become, Lust Ovulation Vast Erotic.
figure it out yourself. love has been demeaned in our society. well, not saying that i have treated love in a respectable manner but i have at least changed, and hope u people who are guilty of such acts. jolly well.. know what you should do.
on a contrary, a different subject, i found out that my job, is far more interesting and enjoyable that i had expected.. no more dreading the hours there. high/low pay does not matter as long as u enjoyed urself. thats the most impt..
last but not least, about masks,looks,appearances, Some people show off in a certain manner because they want the world to see it. Others try to hide their origin because they want the world to see something else. But I'm hoping that someone would see everything in me. From how disorganised I am, to how idealistic I get at times. It's something that everyone is guilty of. and im sure of it, why? people aint proud of themselves,or they want to follow the trend, one simple example. last time in spore, its hokkien ah beng/lians. now, its ah moh bengs/lians, its a pseudo culture. people change to portray themselves in the manner which is highly respected which is currently, the english language, useful as it is, powerful as it becomes a bench mark. people who cant speak or cant string a sentence for nuts are almost rejected, becoming the rock bottom of the society, or becoming the rejects and those with high ability are always associated with good ENGLISH speakers. and these are the real arrogant ones, working in the club, im constantly exposed to such people, for fark sake la, if you have been highly educated, you should more knowledgeable and not stuck ups, if thats what the universities are teaching nowadays, but heck no, kindly shed of the disgusting image and rotten sour face of yours, else, you shan't gain/go further in life.
hmm, off to bed now, working tmr. =)