@ 6:05 PM
yet here i am again. filling my life with the on-goings of another. seeing my best friend in pain wasn't exactly the best moments in life. you feel totally useless, leaving her to fend for herself dry and high. we were intrigued to find out why, you left us here, clueless. Not knowing what to expect, we did the unexpected.
im never once in my whole entire life this concern about school work, to me, RP was a simply a mistake but have i not threw that mindset way back behind the piled up rabbles and junk and replacing within myself a brand new me. telling myself that, this is where i have got to go, there is no u-turn. or perhaps following tifanie's footsteps and taking some private diploma, that sounds pretty appealing.
& did i already mention that the 2nd round of UTs are finally over, no more nightmares about kreb cycle or suffering the pangs of microbes. and i find that i did fairly well for the first round of UTs, all the grades were expected.
i miss having you in my life, where have you gone? Please pick yourself up and savage the remains of your desolate life. You made our lives dull and grey.
@ 1:38 AM
im losing my touch. seriously, all this time i thought i held it nice and cool. i presumed that i could endure it. but i lost it. well, its hard for me to cope with it,. owing that you are my best fren and you have been getting on my back at it. the feeling really sucks. and it seriously annoyed it and that was the final straw. perhaps when we weren't hanging out so much, we treasure the time together more, but as we were out more, it tends to get a little, taken for
granted. its really upsetting that things are turning out this way. but i hope it will be better along the way.
seeing that once so domineering and triumphant side of her now so diminished and frail makes me feel the fragility of life. Age, perhaps the number one life draining factor, the thin built of hers would not be able to withstand a harsh gust, let alone harnessing the weight of the week's groceries. i tried to help, but each time i offered, all i get is a cup of bird's nest or other nourishing food that she herself cant bare to consume. thats really what loves all about. and i felt it grams.
@ 9:47 PM
HELLO! im back after a long struggle. and it was kinda lazy of me to figure out the codes. but unfortunately, i was smart enough to figure it out. HAHA.
alright. been a really hectic week. went back school a couple of times to attend some CE activities. im going to get my CE done this semester, no matter what. =)
nothing's been happening. no big shot. no big deal, just that I reformatted my laptop. and fark. i forgot to take out my notes. and boom. it was gone. damm. no farking mood to revise for my UT now. but while i was looking through my new laptop. i saw my notes. lying in my D drive, thanks the fella from the IT helpdesk to save my notes.
im starting a private blog. to save this from prying eyes.
