@ 1:58 AM
work's fine. a little more than i have expected. more crowd, speed and haste is necessary. been feeling rather down and lethargic. perhaps with my many heart wrenching and worrysome affairs. i cant help but crying out loud for someone to lead and shine my path again.im definitely not mentioning anything much here since there are prying eyes and immature mindsets. people who knows me well should know.
money. it breaks friendships, neh, relationships in general. there are far to many incidents/coincidences/case studies or sayings to prove it. well, indeed, money is the root of all greed. thats why even people like me, work non stop, knowing that there is already sufficient, but our bank accounts/expenditure is like a hollow vacuum, thinking that you already have money and before a blink of an eye, you lost it. thats makes money important, cos there is an infinite need for it. another cause would be the security, in our society, the kids like myself, have been brought up in too much luxury/posh environments. that the existence of money has already changed from, *** to be there as a medium for the exchange of product/services to a .. hmm. let me find a suitable phrase, prominent use, be it loan sharks/banking/investment/security***
back to money being a wrecker, since understanding its crucial/prime role in our life, it becomes important where we position the asset. in this case, among other parties/individuals. i cant say i was not a victim of this eventful case, but almost succumb to the loss of one best friend, nonetheless, the damage's been done, all i can say is, we can resume to the nearest possible stage of perhaps good friends. its just that particular feeling, that emptyness, that gives u the strength and dereliction to abandon all kinship/relationship to get the thing back to replace the space, that empty lot.
thats my piece for today.
im missing the good old days, when i sit in english lessons fantasize about litterbugs and killer litter. and bursting out laughing in school where no one thinks im some sorta freak. and commanding that particular level of respect.
but definitely not the good old HAIR, not the all spiked up like durians but the amazing mushrooms. which share some severe resemblance to the toadstools u see in the early dawn morning. neither the FOX/giordano/or hell knows what other things i wore in the past, the awful cannot make it dress sense.
with every step u take, there are bound to be things that u lose, gain. but make the best of it to retain and improve the old and gain new stuff at the same time, or else, u will be a stick in the mud, never improving till the day u leave to meet jesus.
on a separate note, im seriously exhausted, but i refuse to leave msn now. i can chat/catch up with the ones i miss. sometimes i really take my hat off to see my commitment, so proud of myself...... awww... (in a dream).. and smacks... okay, back. shall go off now.