@ 1:23 AM
2nd april14 more days to the extravagant.
well, nothing much i cant say to describe the urge to jump right in front of orchard road;
yelling that i am finally going to be 18! =)
of course, that is just one insane ranting as usual.
yet of course, with the usual dosage of bubbling effervescence. there are bound to be some spilled milk and the mundane head chore affairs to handle. and yes, it includes the attitude of some. and bound to include work. so if u aint going to hang around and see me babbling, den you should just go elsewhere.
i finally know the importance and uniqueness of family/kinship. recently, got the knowledge that one loved one might be on the road to leaving us. i felt that instinctive fear, the fear of losing. life's that fragile aint it. just a knock on the wall, or a failure in certain who knows what organs could cause you to be diminished. all i know is, i would treasure them for good. no more empty talks and promises. i just hope that God would not take you from us, i already not have a complete family. please, be strong to fight the disease.
just seemed so many issues on my scarce brain space. academic issues has been the number one in my school career. i just cant wonder why cant i just stay in GYSS or let GYSS set up a GYJC or smth. which is much simpler and easier. stuck in this science course was not any one of my options. i was a business or a communications person. but, now, i dont seemed to be able to step out of this endless pit of mess. i've no idea what the future holds.
&& i would still want to say, i LOVE you. but i have neither confidence to woo or to commit to a relationship. and i know its selfish to keep things this way, but, leave it for me ya.