@ 1:55 AM
We all take things for granted, don't we? We always assume that at the end of the day, things will go back to how they were. But then again, once the damage is done, it would etch a scar there forever. And it's hard for it heal back....ever.Words, like a dagger, pierce through my heart.
I never take things seriously. That's my style. Although some people don't like me for that, I don't give a crap. I am who I am, and if you don't see how I do things, then just bloody step out of the way. So when people tell me off, I'll just smile and laugh it off. Even though sometimes its insulting, I know they don't actually mean it. It's a moment of fun or anger that's all.
But somehow today, things went too far. Everybody has their pride. And when you cross the line, it hurts not just my pride, but my feelings too. You can use the excuse, that it's just 'words in the heat of the moment', only so many times. Do you expect me to bite my lips and swallow it down all the time? Have you ever thought how would I feel, behind those laughter that sometimes I can even deceive myself with?
Even if people don't see you as someone important anymore, because they found someone to replace you. Even if they have their own things to do now and even if you are forsaken, I guess I should smile to myself again and say, 'I understand'. Because, like I've said before, it's easy to be angry with someone you love, but it's hard to stay that way.
I promise myself from here on that I would dish out less mean remarks to people I care for. Because I know somehow or another, they might take them to heart.
and ah chang, u should know im just joking. =)
8 more days, yet its still so unprecedented. are there really anyone excited other than myself? cos im finally 18 in like. 8 days which is 192 hours and 11520 minutes. omggosh. total nerve wreck.