@ 1:38 AM
im losing my touch. seriously, all this time i thought i held it nice and cool. i presumed that i could endure it. but i lost it. well, its hard for me to cope with it,. owing that you are my best fren and you have been getting on my back at it. the feeling really sucks. and it seriously annoyed it and that was the final straw. perhaps when we weren't hanging out so much, we treasure the time together more, but as we were out more, it tends to get a little, taken for granted. its really upsetting that things are turning out this way. but i hope it will be better along the way.seeing that once so domineering and triumphant side of her now so diminished and frail makes me feel the fragility of life. Age, perhaps the number one life draining factor, the thin built of hers would not be able to withstand a harsh gust, let alone harnessing the weight of the week's groceries. i tried to help, but each time i offered, all i get is a cup of bird's nest or other nourishing food that she herself cant bare to consume. thats really what loves all about. and i felt it grams.