@ 8:58 PM
i think the maids in my blocks deserve a fucking polite award.they were like so nice, like the hierarchy of this society totally expelled them from the social class. well, there was once, I was rushing off and needed to get into the lift; the maid noticed my hurriedness and waited for me despite I was a distant away, and she used HER HAND to hold on to the door, instead of hitting the 'door open' button; absolutely retarded, but hell, what made me surprised was, she asked, 'Sir, which floor?'
then again, the term Sir is so widely used that it's meaning's no longer there. You walk into macs and you get a morning sir. in uniform groups , officers are labeled as Sir. wtf?
i sat on the pavement along the way home; watching life went past, and as many would do, I asked myself if this was the path of my choice, whether I would wanna stay in this crappy science and continue with the rubbish i'm learning. Things are easier now that I got 2 of my faci's back, which makes adaptation all the more simpler. the faci's are generous with grades now; its either they are genuinely generous, or they have no one else to give, cause my class' like a graveyard. trust me. i'm beginning to miss having cs blasting his loud music, ain to come up with those tactful remarks, mag laughing out really loud, huimin being really angry, gienah's yea yea... and the list goes on.
then what jimmy said struck me;
you true friends are only from secondary school;
poly friends are just TEMPORARY FRIENDS.
i gave a rather smug reply, saying that; you are blessed to have known a celebrity like me, even though it was temporary.. he gave a shug and looked away, feeling really exasperated as I went on in self indulgence.
but deep down inside, i knew what he said was true, part of me wanted to agree with him, yet with the thought of having boh as my best friend, i gave my fair share of indignation to his views. to that sem 2 clique; we swore to meet up; stay united; friends forever, but gradually, time makes sport of us.. it was tough at first, i took it in my stride and thats when E35E took over;
to the fellas; you guys have made a part of my life, be it temporary or not; why bother about the future when the present's here for us
& it takes real courage to say this, but fuck you, fuck your decisions, fuck you everything, not literally; but your actions made me despise you. whats all these commotions about; we ain't fit to be best friends, cause our world's two poles apart. and yes, im referring to the both of you. (not the ah go go)